the only thing i could so now is pray. nothing else that can be done. i seriously think that i wouldnt gonna enjoy this long long holiday at all. its like have nightmares every night. i think i am gonna fail badly for o's and i really think that my life is gonna be over soon....

everything is like shit now.

but seriously...

there's lots of things in mind for the holiday...

to

pick up a new hobby

find a high pay job

get drunk

get all my unhappiness out of my brain

celebrate my dears bday

shopping

countdown x'max