omg....

tomoro i would be going to chine-wuhan le....
so after todae, i would be posting after 9 daes......
i would be back on the 6 September.....
two weeks....
sian......
mayb i would be posting in the middle of the trip but the possibility is very low....
i go to wuhan for a exchange programme...
i regreted going now lo...
i waste mi holidae for the programme....
i very de regreted.....


haix....
y time pass so fast de....
i really cannot catch the time lo......



6 o'clock is the time that i would need to reach the airport tomoro....
haix.....
i would sure goin to miss mi family n fren de....

i sure goin to miss 'u' de....

y ur com wan to spoilt at tis time.....
long time nvr tok to u liao....
sian.....

i would sure sure miss u de....
miss u.....

.... siao liao...

when the daes coming nearer,
i don feel like going to wuhan le....
its like i feel very '.......................'
aiya.....i regraded liao.....
regraded alot...
but got no choice liao now...its fix le..........


todae i oso dono wat happen....
very emo.....
very sian.....
very irritated....
very pegcek....
very easy get angry.....

haiz...
juz now afternoon done a very funny thing.....
so funny that i oso dono y i have done it....
but nvm...
its over now....

sian... now packin the wuhan bag liao....
siao liao got alot of things i still dono....
got alot of things i still need to make it clear....
siao liao....
the more i get fastrated, the more i get irritated....
the more i think, the more i don understand...
the more i wan to find out the answer, the more difficult it is......

haiz.....

the only thing now is .....
not to care , not to bother.....

haix......Zzz

yesterday i don have the time to post so didn't post...
haha...
next time would try hard to post everydae de...

25 august 2008 :

todae was ys b-dae...
we[weichen junwei shyne joey lijun] went to his house to help him celebrate his b-dae.....
it was so boring lo...
regraded goin....haha...
really regaded...
but now sae oso got no use...
so nvm....
sitting ther nothing to do' but to watch tv n.......
free 'live show'


but something very interesting happen...
i could sae it out here but i would sure remember it de...
its really really funny n as i fren i got no much to comment ba....

y muz couple who have jux started have this kind of problem de....
i oso dono...
cos last time i oso hav this kind of feeling,same as her now....
so i got nothing really much to comment bout them....
juz to let her noe tat u 'lov a person means lov, theres not goin to b any confusion de'
thats the most i could sae.....



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26 august 2008 :

haix.......
sian la....
next time i would not have don the same mistake again...
i conform + chop...
i muz not have don it in the first place but i did....

i regraded it so much lo....


todae i got back mi CA result...
i score quite badly but luckily i nvr fail any subjects....
if i got fail i sure would go jump down the building liao....
from todae onwards, i muz really put in some efford on mi study liao...
everydae muz at least study for 2hr at home....
or alse this year end exam which is only 4 more weeks away,i would sure fail de....
than next year i would drop to na le...

i want to b in express.
i don wan to be the worst among mi cousins......
i wan to be someone who is capable of doing simple things....


i really really hope that all mi hopes would come true....
everything would be juz good for mi.....
nothing that is bad happened......
hope that tmr onwards would be better....


i really really hate u but i got no choice but to keep it in mi heart...
hope that u would not continue to be like this...
hope that everything would change from todae onwards....
i m not the one who is changing but is u....
but if u continue to b like this, loosing u this fren is not a big deal to mi.....
but having a fren is always better than loosing a fren.....
u cause mi to lose more things than i thought....i really regraded being that close to u...
if at the start we were not that close,we would still be better fren now....
but its not going to b possible if u don change........

" "........" "

todae... nothing special happen...
sian...

haix....
todae got caught in the rain....
siao liao....sure get more sick de.....
tomoro mi nose sure going to drop down de....

tomoro sure die liao....
shit lah.....











hiaz......
y muz u b lik tis.....
y cant we b like before.....

haiz......
nvm le lah...
wat u wan to do is now ur problem liao...
at first i still wan to try to 挽回 the relationship.....
but u don 领情.... so now juz let it b....
who care......

''_''

haix.....
y it have bcom like tat...
i don wan it to b like tis de leh....
u sae mi tis n tat....so sad...
u hav make mi look wrong towards u....
haix....nvm le....its goin to b over soon liao...
cos ''...............''

sian....
sick liao....
i m feeling very 'xin ku' ....
mi throat very pain , having a running nose n i think going to hav fever soon......

how????
i cannot fall sick at this time....
i goin to wuhan liao in a few more daes......
if now fall sick, sure die de....
mi voice very 'sexy' now...
haha...mi voice sounded very wired...
.......
.......
everything changes n now dono wat will be happening next.....

hiax....

haix....

haix....

haix....

....

kns...

... wat a stupid thing i hav done....
i can't belive that i m so crazy... haha....
i m siao until i hav done a stupid thing.....
siao siao liao.....
haix....
but nvm la.... thats wats fren r for...

sain sia....todae reach home quite late than mi mama kp kb mi.....
she s irritating lo....
onli later than befoore half hr nia...
need so big reaction ma....
still need sae until like something bad going to happen to mi like that....
another siao kia...
haix....

hiax...

haix...

... ...

wah.....
tis few daes i m so guai that i oso cannot belive it miself....
i immediately went home after skool lo.....
every dae lik got nothing to do....
don wan go home tat early oso cannot....cos got no where to go...
got no programme after skool.... sian....
so everytime would go find jie jie to study wif mi....
everydae at home facing the four wall would die de lo.....
cannot stand liao....
everydae study n study.... study until i going crazy liao......
but got no choice...
the exam r coming closer le... each dae i pass, one dae count down to exam....
very scared.....

no motivation for mi to go on studying.....
everydae keep on staring in the blank ....
haix.... y have i change so much....
luckily i still hav jie jie to study wif.....
she could at least help mi a bit....
a bit oso not enough lo....
sian.....
dono who can motivate mi leh... i miself oso dono....

wah......

wah... todae very special loh....
i actually studied at the McDonald loh...
i was miself was very shocked too...
how could i have actually studied for the whole afternoon.....^^
wah...
i oso actually studied with mi sis...
so shocking tat she actually studied with mi...
haha....



haix....
before tat i was very frustrated cos something happened....
dono y i have tat kind of feeling all the time.....
i hate this kind of feeling...
HATE IT SO MUCH!!!
THIS KIND OF FEELING MAKE MI IRRITATED!!!
haix.....



.... .... .... ....

haha^^

yeah.....^^

todae very happy....
cos mi sis came back n we went shopping together...^^
long time nvr c her le...><
she onli came home once in a blue moon....
sob sob...

haha...todae i bought a few shirts.....
long time nvr go shopping n finally buy new cloths le...^^
very happy cos todae all the expences not i give de...





onward singapore^^
muz work hard for the olympic.....^^
table tennis is the onli hope in singapore le....

you...

要不是因为你, 事情就不会便成这样了...
我是不会原谅你的....


i m having lots n lots of regrats liao......
wat can i do next to even help miself.....
how???? i oso dono....




todae nothing much happen....
but is tat i already have alot of problem in mi mind le which cannot be clear at one go....

haiz.......
sian.......
the wuhan trip is getting closer n closer each dae.......
i m very excited but i haven do anything to prepare for the trip...
hope that time don pass tat fast...
i don wan the dae to arrive tat fast....
... .... ....
haiz......

freak out le.....

freak la....now adae starting to get busy le...
need to cop with studies n oso mi own problems n oso things that is changing everydae which need to b corrected...

i need to work hard for the coming exam n make sure i score the result tat i want de...
for this time i have to work double hard as towards the year-end examination is onli 5more week left liao....
this time mi CA scores r very lousy.....sob sob la.....

watever things that teacher teaches r not staying in mi mind liao...
all r coming out le....
i oso cannot concentrate on mi work everytime...
i would think of something else.....
this sure cannot continue on de....
i have to correct mi bad habits n concentrate more on work n oso don daydream liao....
always got carried away when doing homework, can sit on the chair staring into the blang for 1hr....
die laio le lo this time.....if got very lan results i would sure die de lo.....
haix.....

['',]

i hav already made up mi mine liao......
it hav make mi very troubled everydae....
i am not goin to care le...cos i hav alot of problem le.....

i don wan to create more trouble ......
so now jux don care u liao....
wat u sae wat u do i would oso won care le.....

juz maintain the relationship now and don make it worst le....
so we can still b close n good....

juz let it end n get over it....
haix...... i really cant stand it liao.....








haix..... starting to miss u ....long time no c no tok no chat no play no anything....
u oso very long nvr online liao.... miss u....
i noe we r over but.......haix.....
nothing can b done cos is all mi fault.....
sob sob... ... realli very sorri to u......

wa...

wah...... nice sky man..... nvr c this kind of sky colour b4..

haixxxx.....

todae is like shit .....

nothing good happen on mi .....

everything that happen was not what i wanted....

now wat i only hope is that everything goes on smoothly ba....

nothing which would cause mi to 'emo' happen too....

hope that this would b over soon n eveything would be as good as ever^^

. . . . . .

yeah......hope that we could last longer this time.....we mux last long.....['',]

i will make sure that we last longer.....

lov u....

sob sob

haix.....
nothing much happen today...
just vry sian....
no mood to post much ba....

things that r happening everyday ,
is like shit for me....
all of them is negative towards me....
none of it is positive for me....
even though i know that its improving,
but its still vry bad for me......


today at home got nothing to do...
doing the same old thing....
stare into the blank n building castle in the air....
always doing this ,
dono for wat purpose...
i can do some more meaningful things mah....
always thinking than theres going to be miracles...
but in this world,
nothing lik miracles is going to happen....
theres no miracles at all.....
not at alll....

national dae

wah.....singapore really very power

rainbow

rainbow....wah...so nice ^^

it a real one that i have taken with mi own camera

things r different now adays

many things r changing without u notice-ing.....

everydae in life is a challenge to mi, all the dae that i gone through have happy n sad n fastration n angry n even no understanding too.... sometimes even u urself don nooe wats goin on.....

nowadae 4 mi i have lots of thing which i cant understand n cant make it clear....
i m very confuse... very confuse......

don feel like thinking n caring it any more but ... ... ... mi mind keep on thinking bout it trying to find out the answer to mi question toward the confusion....

....haix....
everdae living in no peacfullness.....

who cn help mi >.<

u r so irritating

...u sux forever
..... hate u la.... so noisy none of ur bisnuss de thing u ccare so much for wat....idiot .


sux

sux

sux

sux

sux forever.....

happy happy

ScAarrRRrryYyyyyYy

tis year seven month is so scary 4 mi .... thers even scary things tat is happening to mi.... e person is dame shockin, his question is straighter than what i can answer liao... i don even neo wat can i reply him la YES or NO i sos dono miself loh...

nvr c e person b4 don even noe him la he dame.....haix dono how sae lo.



ohhhh..... mi god its so unbeliveabe lo

problemsss

hahaha fridae is finally here....
sian la...
everydae oso got no mood to study le lo thn sure fail exam lo...
thn hte CAs sure got very low marks de lo...
everydae feel like sleeping no mood to stuby no mood to do anything lo...

... sian....


btween frenz oso starts to have some problems liao lo....
i miself can sense it lo no need other ppl to tell mi....
e sense is getting strongger n strongger liao i really don wan it to b lik tis lo ,
tings shouldn't b lik tis de ...

i really hope tat it would b over soon...
i wished hard tat everyting wld b over as soon as posibble b4 the next outhin ...
i make sure tat i would try hard not to have anymore problem btween us le....
haix ...
:(